Heal Me, Lord!

As a disabled person of almost 4 years now, I often wonder why God does not fully heal me. I think of all I could do for Him if only I could move faster, endure longer, just be fully functional! I'm reading a classic book on prayer called "The Kneeling Christian". Chock full of encouraging words about prayer, I am so enjoying the time spent devouring it. As you might imagine, one of the chapters is about unanswered prayers or those that seem to go unanswered.

Perhaps God knows me too well. He knows I would just go back to old frazzled super busy me. Getting caught up in the business of life, the woman who had time for Him after her list was finished.

My communion with Him now is so much sweeter and yet, it is only natural that I'd like to be healed. The more I study, the more I know He is able. So, I don't know the why to this unanswered prayer which, for me, is just one of many and is not even my top prayer request.

Somehow, because of my disability, I am able to tell others what God has done in my life. It opens doors for his glory. A strange and wonderful mystery unfolds when you know, you just know that is by grace you make it through your day.

In this book it says "Is it not a comfort to know that we may bring more glory to God under something we are apt to regard as a hindrance or a handicap, than if the undesired thing was removed?" Just like St. Paul who asked for his thorn to be removed three times, his prayer was answered with "My grace is sufficient for thee: My power is make perfect in your weakness." 2 Corinthians 12:9.

Lord, I thank you for the grace to make it through the day. I thank you for healing me both now and in the future. You are all I need. Help me to glorify you today through my weakness. Amen.